Ridding Your Mind of Self Doubt [Audio]
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PLEASE NOTE, WHILE IT IS GREAT TO DO THIS WITH THE FULL MOON, YOU CAN REALLY DO JUST THE MEDITATION OR THE ENTIRE EXERCISE ANYTIME...
“When you enrich your mind you can break the slavery of low habits and ego. You can act as part of the entire cosmos and learn to elevate and to let go.”
As I always say, I am not an astrologist, but I deeply feel the energy of the moon cycles. While my meditation is a daily practice, I feel during the days leading up to, during and a little after the Full Moon I tend to get even quieter. Really allowing myself to feel and honor what is coming up for me.
*FULL MOON* in Pisces is calling us from her watery depths urging us to take the time to go within and bathe in the sacred waters of our Soul. We need time to be with our Soul to listen and discern all that we are moving through. (Mystic Mama)
As I have said before, the Full Moons, regardless of what sign they are in, have a focus on releasing and endings. They also bring light on the things that we have not been wanting to look at. These are the things that we might not want to acknowledge or accept about ourselves, some refer to this as the shadow. While it can be uncomfortable and painful, we need to allow our dark side to show itself to us. When we allow it to be seen and felt, we can release ourselves from the power and shame it might hold over us.
The past few weeks, even more so this past week, I have found myself more withdrawn, needing more alone time than I have before. And, to be honest, this summer has been a bit more heady than I had expected. I find myself questioning even more than I have in the past. As I go inward to understand myself, I seem to be filling myself with more questions. While I receive the things I have wanted for so long, I notice that my inner voice of self doubt has been mumbling louder than it has in the past.
Most people who meet me would say, wow you are so confident, and there is a huge part of me that agrees with that. I am aware of the things I know, the good I do, and my abilities and feel confident in them. But, as everyone knows, our mind can have conflicting thoughts. I can feel the confidence and then within moments, I can spin into moments of self doubt. I can get caught up in comparison and self judgement. How do we accept the parts of ourselves that we don't love? How can we work on them, while still honoring them?
My parents have told me that I was born "different" and always questioning. I will never forget the call I had with my father to let him know I was changing my major in college from business to philosophy, He was silent and then outraged. What was I going to do, stand on a corner and constantly question life? While I have had many different versions of myself, it seems I always go back to wanting to understand it all more.
My dedicated meditation practice has helped me really understand myself more. It allows those questions to be more of a curiosity then a downward spiral into darkness and depression. I am so deeply grateful to my practice, and the effect it has on my anxiety and depression. Its' ability to help me move through my bouts of depression has been life changing. Now, I can honor those moments and still turn them around with much less time and pain then I have before.
I have been practicing the meditation below, and it has been really helpful to quiet my mind. When I pay attention to my breath, it reminds me I am alive. As it moves through me, I can feel it nurturing and cleansing my body and my mind. Connecting with it, knowing it is my life force and that it has so many answers in it. It puts me in a state of compassion not only for others, but for myself as well. It also helps to put me in action. When I acknowledge where I am feeling challenged, this meditation has been helpful in receiving clear action steps to move me out of the place of self doubt. Steps that feel in flow and not in force.
I have made the recording below, and have been listening to it daily , so that I could be reminded of the power of my breath. As you listen, you will hear me read from a moving lecture from Yogi Bhajan and his eloquent words on the breath of life.
JOURNALING
When you are finished, pull out your journal and acknowledge the things that came up for you. What are the whispers that you have been trying to ignore? What would happen if you acknowledged them? Are there things that you could do that could lessen their power?
Take your time, feeling and releasing what you are tired of carrying around with you. Acknowledging what you truly want and finding things, no matter how small, that you could do to move past them. Allow yourself to be guided. You can listen to this playlist
Now it is time to clear your crystals, which you can do with Palo Santo, Sage, Sound, dirt, water etc... You can check out my HIGHLIGHT STORY CALLED CLEARING to get quick info on how to clear your crystals. To get more information check out THIS VIDEO where we talk about crystals, moons and clearing....When you are finished put your crystals either outside or near a window for 24 hours...
START BY TUNING IN (This is all on the recording above)
Posture: Sit in Easy Pose with the palms of both hands and fingers are completely touching. The outer edge of the mound of the thumb is pressed into the sternum.
Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo 3 times
I bow to the Creative Wisdom, I bow to the Divine Teacher within
Ad Guray Nameh Jugad Guray Nameh Sat Guray Nameh Siri Guru Devay Nameh 3 times
I bow to the primal wisdom. I bow to the wisdom through the ages.
I bow to the true wisdom.I bow to the great unseen wisdom.
Pranayam to Balance Mental Energy I
This praanayam creates this balance and allows the mind to rid itself of doubts.
The radiance and beauty of a person depends on the clarity and shine of his circumvent force field, which in turn depends on the balance of energy in the left (moon) and right (sun) sides of the body.
Posture: Sit in Easy Pose with an erect spine. Arms are straight with hands on the knees in Gyan Mudra.
Eyes: The eyes are open gazing straight forward.
Breath: Inhale for 5 seconds. Suspend the breath for 10 seconds and then exhale for 5 seconds.
Begin with this rhythm and gradually increase the breathing time to inhaling 10 seconds, holding 15 seconds, and exhaling 10 seconds.
Meditate on the inflow and outflow of breath. It is the divine spark of life.
Time: Continue for 10 – 15 minutes.
© The Teachings of Yogi Bhajan
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