I’m going to tell you something I was told to never tell ANYONE.

Something I’ve held so much shame about over the years.

Something I’m (nervously) ready to shout from the mountaintops:

I turn 48 on Saturday.
It’s taken me a long time to be able to tell anyone my age.

This newsletter is a hard one for me to write.

When I was in my 20’s, I was told to stop telling people because I wouldn’t be able to lie when I needed to.

And so for almost three decades, I’ve kept quiet.

And in that silence, I internalized so much negativity.

And it wasn’t until I started meditating on my upcoming birthday that I realized:

I don’t ACTUALLY think there’s anything wrong with getting older.

In fact, I think it’s beautiful.

I would like to continue doing it.

But I was told aging was shameful, so I held onto that and built my own shame stories around that story.

I even hated and feared my birthday, because I knew with it would come questions about age.

And I didn’t want anyone to know.

I’m 10 years older than my husband.

I have a 2 year old, and I’m the oldest of all the other moms.

I knew there would be judgment around both of those things.

But here’s my new truth: I’m done with that shame story.

Getting older is a privilege, and I refuse to hide it anymore.

In fact, I want to celebrate it.

I’m done putting my money and belief system into the story that youth is the most important thing in life.
Sure, it’s great to be young. I loved being young.

But I also love being me now. I love this version of me.

And I never would have become this version of me if I was also still entangled in a story where I prioritized youthfulness.

I don’t want to miss the beauty of now: the wisdom I’ve acquired and the sense of self I’ve developed.

I don’t want to miss any more opportunities because I’m too busy hiding something (and I missed so much!).

And so here’s what I will say to you:

If there’s something you’re hiding, do the work to own it. There’s so much freedom on the other side of that story.
Happy 48th birthday to me.

I’m so happy to be here, and I’m so happy to be me.

If you’re wanting to tap into my process of getting clear on what it is you really want, check out my FREE clarity meditation here.