Emotions Running Deep [Audio + Playlist]

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Please note, while it is great to do this with the New Moon, you can really start ANYTIME, so don't make excuses why you can't start TODAY!

I almost didn’t post anything today. To be honest, I have been in a funk. For the last few days I have felt a heaviness inside of myself, a questioning of things, old thoughts peaking their head. It’s been uncomfortable to say the very least. While I am not one to dwell in my feelings (anymore), I know I have to honor them and allow myself to actually feel it. .

If you have been reading any of the astrology reports, then you know that a New Moon in Pisces is a time of deep healing and of feeling emotional. For someone who rarely cries, I have shed more in the past few days then I have in months. And as I sit is that strong discomfort, I can feel the heaviness slowlly lifting.

I have found for me, that when I get curious as to why I am feeling a certain way I am able to unwrap it and learn from it. When the feelings of sadness, doubt or fear come in, I sit with them and lean in to hear what my body and emotions are trying to tell me.

 With this New Moon in Pisces, and Mercury in Retrograde, it is a perfect time to slow down, reflect, go inward.   This month with New Moon in Pisces, we can focus on healing. It is time for us to look inside and see what we have been avoiding, bringing it to the surface, and then letting it go.   

Some people think that to be strong is to never feel pain. In reality, the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it, accept and learn from it. — Unknown

Image A Wild Dove

Image A Wild Dove

RITUAL

So, for this new moon, I invite you to take some time and get quiet. Find an area that feels sacred to you. Get out your journal, incense and cleanser of choice, I will be using Palo Santo.  And, for this Ritual, I will be focusing on my Amethyst and Selenite Crystals, as they both have such healing and clearing powers.

As you listen to the recording above, I will take you through some of the prompts below.

Have your journal, crystals and what ever you are using to clear near by.

 Just sit quiet or lie down and breathe. Go in. Just let it out. Write it out, what has been coming up for you, what have you feel trying to bury inside. Give yourself permission to feel the pain, and know that is ok. Those things that have been whispering in your ear, release them on the paper. 

When you're finished, read it out loud telling yourself that it is ok to feel this way.  You are ready to heal it, and you know that means you have to see it and feel it first. Saying it aloud helps to take away the shame of keeping the pain unspoken and hidden. As you are reading your words, try to step outside yourself and see the lessons that that pain has brought you.  Look for the opportunities of learning and growth. 

When you feel ready, take your palo santo or sage, and start swirling the smoke around yourself and then your crystals. Really feeling the clearing that the smoke creates. Really feel yourself releasing the guilt, the shame and the pain. Then, place your crystals outside or by a window for a minimum of 24 hours.  

As far as the entry, I will be keeping it. I am finding the more I look back and reflect, the more I learn. Do what feels intuitive for you, burn it, throw it down the toilet, keep it etc...

PLAYLIST HERE if you want to go in without the prompts.

Please  let me know how it goes! 

If you’re ready to really go after your goals and want a little extra help, I would love to see you in New York City in person, or virtually anywhere Schedule a time here. Looking forward to connecting! 

If you enjoy the ritual and meditations that I share, I invite you to join me and a group of like minded souls to go a little deeper.

I'm so excited and honored to teach my workshop; 

Breathe It Out: Free Yourself From Anxiety and Step Into Ease on Sunday, March 24, from 7 - 8:30 PM at Reflections Yoga. 

Together, we will work to understand what anxiety is,how your mind works, how to control it, and learn how to get ourselves out when we're caught in a trigger. It is so important to learn, process, and practice together. We will learn the tools to step into a life of ease, and you will see that you are not alone.

What you'll leave with:

An unforgettable conversation 

Practice in Breathwork + Kundalini Kriyas and Meditations

Your own Crystals from Rock Your Worth

The most delicious chocolate from Freaky Health Chocolate

A new community of like minded friends

New Years' 40 Day Meditation to Learn the Lessons of the Past

Photo John Von pamer

Photo John Von pamer

The beginning of the year is a great time to reflect.  For me, today is about meditating and journaling. The start of the year is the perfect time to start a new habit. Yogi Bhajan says practicing every day for 40 days straight will break any negative habits that block you from the expansion possible through the kriya or mantra.

I am in love with Kirtan Kriya in general, and the Cross-Heart version is extra special. I find it to be incredibly clearing and peaceful.  This meditation works on The Negative Mind,  The Negative Mind is there to protect us, but when it is too loud, it can stop us from moving forward and taking action.  When The Negative Mind is too quiet, we can find ourselves repeating mistakes of the past.  This is a great meditation for bringing The Negative Mind into balance.  You will be able to learn quickly from your past, and see new ways to clean it up and avoid repeating the same lessons.  I am going to add this meditation to my daily meditation for the next 40 days.  I invite you to do this along with me and let me know how it goes!

"The Hemispheres will balance; the past will be processed and dumped; and insecurity will vaporize." Yogi Bhajan

I will start by being in a sacred space, for me that is by my Altar.  Next, I  will light my candle and my incense and sit quiet for a Moment.  Then I will begin...

I created an audio file that will include tuning in, a quick basic spine series warm up and then 11 minutes of Cross Heart Kirtan Kriya, followed by 3 minutes of the Gong.  There will be music and I will be calling out all the cues.  You can listen to the audio below.

TUNING IN  

“Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo” said three times. Ong Namo: I  bow to the Creative Wisdom, Guru Dev Namo: I bow to the Divine Teacher within. 

Ad Guray Nameh Jugad Guray Nameh Sat Guray Nameh Siri Guru Devay Nameh said three times. Ad Guray Nameh: I bow to the primal wisdom. Jugad Guray Nameh: I bow to the wisdom through the ages .Sat Guray Nameh:  I bow to the true wisdom. Siri Guru Devay Nameh: I bow to the great unseen wisdom

 

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

 

WARM UP-BASIC SPINE

  1. Quick WARM UP of Basic Spine Flex. Come into Easy Pose (a comfortable cross-legged sitting position). Inhale as you lift the chest up high and tilt the pelvis forward. Then exhale, round the lower back, and rock the pelvis back. Remember to lift the chest up high on each inhale and keep the chin level to the ground in both positions.

  2. This is good to lubricate the spine, and move the energy. It adjusts the spine, strengthens the nervous and reproductive systems, and brings the emotions into balance. It is not part of the meditation, but beneficial to warm up the spine.

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

CROSS-HEART KIRTAN KRIYA

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Image by starhealing 11

Posture: Sit in easy pose with a straight spine. Cross the forearms below the wrist and place them in front of the chest. Arms should be out slightly and angled a bit up towards the chest.

Eye Focus: Look down to the tip of your nose.

Mantra: Sa - Infinity Ta - Life Na - Death, Transformation Ma - Birth

Process: 

Chant “Sa Ta Na Ma” out loud and press the corresponding fingers to your thumb on each syllable. 

Sa - Press thumb and index finger (brings knowledge) 

Ta - Press thumb and middle finger (brings wisdom and patience) 

Na - Press thumb and ring finger (brings vitality) 

Ma - Press thumb and pinkie finger (brings enhanced communication)

SA Library of Teachings

SA
Library of Teachings

TA Library of Teachings

TA Library of Teachings

NA Library of Teachings

NA Library of Teachings

MA Library of teachings

MA Library of teachings

Your arms should be like the drawing above, across your chest.  These pictures are just to show you the changing fingers for the meditation.

Time: 11 Minutes

To Finish: 

Inhale and suspend your breath, roll your eyes back up and become completely still. Then relax.  (Adapted from KRI and The Mind, Yogi Bhajan)

JOURNALING

After you finish the meditation, I invite you to put on THIS PLAYLIST  As you listen, reflect upon 2018. What were some of the lessons you learned from things that might have turned out differently than you had wanted. When were there times that you had wished you could have reacted differently. And continue to go through all the things that no longer serve you from 2018 and then spend the remainder thinking about all that you want to call in to replace those habits, people, thoughts, beliefs, etc…. Get as detailed as you can as you write all of this out. After that, start to think and write about what are some of the things that you could do starting today to move closer to what you want to call in. Get clear and specific. Take your time… 

Happy New Year, may 2019 be filled with happiness, joy, good health, abundance, compassion and love.

If you are looking for a little extra help with making 2019 a year beyond your wildest dreams, Book a One on One Session with me! Looking forward to connecting! 

 

 

The Last Full Moon Ritual of the Year

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Please note, while it is great to do this with the Full Moon, you can really start ANYTIME, so don't make excuses why you can't start TODAY!

Here we are, at the last Full Moon of 2018. This has been a very intense year, to say the least. We are so lucky to end it with the Full Moon in Cancer. The energy of this Full Moon is not only about releasing, but also about allowing to bring in what you truly desire. It is said to be a moon of infinite possibilities.

 As I have said before, I am not an astrologer, but I am very connected to the moon cycles, and the more I pay attention, the more things start to flow.  When you do rituals with the moon cycles, you have the pull of the sky on your side.  This month with Cancer, we have extra help in truly leaving all the things we no longer wish to carry on in 2018 and bringing to us all that we desire in 2019.  It is a time for getting honest, getting clear and taking action. 

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So, for this full moon, I invite you to take some time and go in. Sitting by your Altar, or a place where you have privacy, get out your crystals, light your candle and incense and begin. I recorded a meditation with a journal prompt to help you focus on what you are ready to release and what you are ready to bring in. You can use the recording and if you want to continue to journal, you can use the full playlist I made HERE

Use  two different pages for what you are releasing(A) and what you are choosing to bring in the new year(B).  

When you're done, look through your A list and write out 3 steps you can take to let go of some of those things before the end of the year. Get detailed. Then look at B list and do the same thing. What are three small steps you could take to bring any of what your wrote forward for 2019. You can keep going with this, every time you take action steps, write down more you can take. You’ll start to notice that small little steps are actually where all the big change actually takes place.

When you are done, take out your crytslas and you clearer of choice and repeat out loud the things that you will let go of and follow it up with what you will put in its’place.

For this entry, I won't burn or though away the journal entry, as I may get inspired to revisit and add more steps to release throughout the year.  It will also be a nice thing to look back on for the next Full Moon...

Please  let me know how it goes! 

If you’re ready to really let go of all that is holding you back and want a little extra help, I would love to see you in New York City in person, or virtually anywhere Schedule a time here. Looking forward to connecting!

Meditation for Eliminating Anxiety

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As I started to record the meditation for this upcoming Full Moon, it quickly turned into a meditation to help with anxiety.. As I have said before, Full Moons can bring light on things that we are trying to keep hidden. Things we don’t normally see, or even allow ourselves to see. Often around Full Moons, more people will reach out and come see me to help with their anxiety. They notice that the full moon can often make their anxiety feel heightened.

“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.”

Albert Einstein

Anxiety often happens because we are either re-experiencing something that happened in the past, or we are fearful about something that might happen in the future. One of the best ways to get ourselves out of the spin, is to get firmly grounded in the present.

I created the below meditation, to get you deeply in the body and able to relax. Allow your mind to stop wandering and instead fully feel your body. Get present in what you are physically feeling in your body.

You can do this meditation anywhere and anytime.

Once we are grounded, we can often look at ourselves, our stories, our worries with a different perspective. Now take out your journal and just start to go in. You can use this PLAYLIST See what is coming up for you.  What is that version of your story are you ready to release?  How can you see your situations that are causing you anxiety differently?  You can use this playlist whenever you want to calm your mind. Allow the mantras to soothe you.

Once you have completed the journal portion, you are ready to clear your crystals, which you can do with Palo Santo, Sage, Sound, dirt, water etc... For a quick lesson on clearing and crystals check out my Instagram Highlights and click on the one for Clearing. To get more information check out THIS VIDEO where we talk about crystals, moons and clearing...

If you enjoy the ritual and meditations that I share, I invite you to join me and a group of like minded souls to go a little deeper.

I'm so excited and honored to teach my workshop; 

Breathe It Out: Free Yourself From Anxiety and Step Into Ease on Sunday, March 24, from 7 - 8:30 PM at Reflections Yoga. 

Together, we will work to understand what anxiety is,how your mind works, how to control it, and learn how to get ourselves out when we're caught in a trigger. It is so important to learn, process, and practice together. We will learn the tools to step into a life of ease, and you will see that you are not alone.

What you'll leave with:

An unforgettable conversation 

Practice in Breathwork + Kundalini Kriyas and Meditations

Your own Crystals from Rock Your Worth

The most delicious chocolate from Freaky Health Chocolate

A new community of like minded friends


If you’re ready to unblock and release patterns that have been holding you back and want a little extra guidance, I would love to see you in New York City in person, or virtually anywhere Schedule a time here. Looking forward to connecting! 

Using the Healing Energy of the New Moon in Pisces

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Please note, while it is great to do this with the New Moon, you can really start ANYTIME, so don't make excuses why you can't start TODAY!

The speed at which this year is moving is like nothing I have ever experienced, and I know I am not the only one who is feeling it.  With this New Moon in Pisces, it is a perfect time to slow down, reflect, go inward.  As I have said before, I am not an astrologer, but I am very connected to the moon cycles, and the more I pay attention, the more things start to flow.  When you do rituals with the moon cycles, you have the pull of the planets on your side.  This month with New Moon in Pisces, we can focus on healing. It is time for us to look inside and see what we have been avoiding, bringing it to the surface, and then letting it go.   

Some people think that to be strong is to never feel pain. In reality, the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it, accept and learn from it. — Unknown

"New Moon in Pisces invites us to take a deep breath and exhale everything that keeps us separate from our own connection to the dreamtime, the Wakan, the Great Mystery.  Here is the opening to take the deep dive into the Void – a deeper intelligence permeating all life.  Here we are called to surrender our burdens as we are held by the limitless ocean of consciousness.  We feel the compassion and acceptance of the Tao, and our own ability to forgive and accept ‘what is’ is strengthened so we may extend the same to others.  There is a time for being and a time for doing.  This is most definitely a time for being.  We extend gratitude to receptive, watery Pisces for her gift at this most feminine of times, more so than at any other time of the year.  Intuition, imagination, and the opening into awareness are at an all time high.  We are supported to connect with our own inner guidance.  So much is being offered for our awakening and healing and many are rising to the occasion."  Pat Liles Full Write Up Here

Image A Wild Dove

Image A Wild Dove

RITUAL

So, for this new moon, I invite you to take some time and get quiet. Find an area that feels sacred to you. Get out your journal, incense and cleanser of choice, I will be using Palo Santo.  And, for this Ritual, I will be focusing on my Amethyst and Selenite Crystals, as they both have such healing and clearing powers.

As you listen to THIS PLAYLIST let the first song play.  Just sit quiet and breathe. Go in. When it is finished, get out your journal and just let it out. Write it out, what has been coming up for you, what have you feel trying to bury inside. Give yourself permission to feel the pain, and know that is ok. Those things that have been whispering in your ear, release them on the paper. 

When you're finished, read it out loud telling yourself that it is ok to feel this way.  You are ready to heal it, and you know that means you have to see it and feel it first. Saying it aloud helps to take away the shame of keeping the pain unspoken and hidden. As you are reading your words, try to step outside yourself and see the lessons that that pain has brought you.  Look for the opportunities of learning and growth. 

When you feel ready, take your palo santo or sage, and start swirling the smoke around yourself and then your crystals. Really feeling the clearing that the smoke creates. Really feel yourself releasing the guilt, the shame and the pain. Then, place your crystals outside or by a window for a minimum of 24 hours.  

As far as the entry, I will be keeping it. I am finding the more I look back and reflect, the more I learn. Do what feels intuitive for you, burn it, throw it down the toilet, keep it etc...

PLAYLIST HERE

Ra - Sun

Ma - Moon

Daa - Earth

Saa - Impersonal Infinity

Saa Say - Totality of Infinity

So - Personal sense of merger and identity

Hung - The infinite, vibrating and real.

This mantra taps into the energies of the sun, moon, earth, and the Infinite Spirit to bring deep healing. It is important to pull the navel point powerfully on the first Sa and on Hung. Note that the word Hung is not long and drawn out. Rather, it is clipped off forcefully as you pull in the navel. Chant one complete cycle of the entire mantra with each breath. Then deeply inhale and repeat. Remember to move the mouth precisely with each sound. Try to feel the resonance in the mouth and in the sinus area.

(Taken from 3HO )

Please  let me know how it goes! 

If you’re ready to really go after your goals and want a little extra help, I would love to see you in New York City in person, or virtually anywhere Schedule a time here. Looking forward to connecting! 

Using the Energy of the Full Moon in Virgo

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Please note, while it is great to do this with the Full Moon, you can really start ANYTIME, so don't make excuses why you can't start TODAY!

Wow, how are we already at the end of February our third Full moon of 2018?   As I have said before, I am not an astrologer, but I am very connected to the moon cycles, and the more I pay attention, the more things start to flow.  When you do rituals with the moon cycles, you have the pull of the sky on your side.  This month with Virgo, we can get a lot of cleaning done.  It is a time for getting honest with yourself and taking action. 

“You will never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine.” John C. Maxwell

The full moon in Virgo is all about processing and analysis and those really habitual things. Virgo is a sign that’s concerned with what we do day to day. This particular full moon is a really great time to clear up what it is that you're willing to let go of, so that you can be more whole in your life. So that you can get out of your own way. (taken from Jessica Lanyadoo,)

Our habits and why we choose them, have been coming up  lot in classes I am taking, articles I am reading and with clients in our sessions.  It is an interesting topic to ponder...Why do we do certain things? It is because someone in our family did them, something we see on social media, or a choice that we are making truly for us?

Image A Wild Dove

Image A Wild Dove

So, for this full moon, I invite you to take some time and really journal out your daily habits. Sitting by your Altar, or a place where you have privacy, get out your crystals, light your candle and incense and begin.  Play this Playlist Here    Use  two different pages, and free flowingly write out your habits.  Without over thinking it, put them on either side A, that is for things that are positive actions and choices, like daily meditation and then column B for things that don't really serve you and that you do out of routine, somewhat robotic.  

When you're done,  pick a minimum of 3 on each page, side A, the ones you commit to doing until the next Full Moon, and side B, the ones you commit to letting go, at least until the next full moon. On another page, rewrite the ones you will let go of, saying out loud, I will release...making room for things that help to serve me.  While you are saying this, you can light your palo santo or sage, and start cleansing your crystals.  When you finish, write out the actions you are committing to keeping daily, and say out loud, I am committed to doing ... daily knowing that this will help me live the life I know I am capable of living. Then, place your crystals outside or by a window for a minimum of 24 hours.  

For this entry, I won't burn or though away the journal entry, as I may get inspired to revisit and add more habits to release throughout the month.  It will also be a nice thing to look back on for the next Full Moon...

Playlist Here  

Mantra is: Sa Re Sa Sa, Sa Re Sa Sa, Sa Re Sa Sa Sa Rung, Har Re Har Har, Har Re Har Har, Har Re Har Har Har Rung

Translation:

That Infinite Totality is here, everywhere. That creativity of God is here, everywhere.

Adversity melts before this mantra. This mantra takes away negativity from within oneself awakening the Infinite Creative energy to burn away obstacles to achieving higher consciousness.

Sa is the Infinite, the Totality, God. It is the element of ether. It is the origin, the beginning, and it contains all other effects. It is subtle and beyond. Har is the creativity of the Earth. It is the dense element, the power of manifestation, the tangible, the personal. These sounds are woven together and then projected through the sound of ung or complete Totality. This is the base mantra of all mantras.

It gives you the capacity of effective communication so your words contain mastery and impact. This mantra helps you conquer the wisdom of the past, present, and future. It brings you peace and prosperity even if it wasn’t in your destiny. (Taken from 3HO )

Please  let me know how it goes! 

If you’re ready to really go after your goals and want a little extra help, I would love to see you in New York City in person, or virtually anywhere Schedule a time here. Looking forward to connecting! 

A Year After My Life Changing Decision

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They say a lot can happen in a year.  February 1st, marks the 1 year anniversary of my life changing in a way I could have never imagined. I feel as if I’ve lived a lifetime over the past twelve months. It seems like there’s been too much change to fit in the container of a single year, and I open my journal to track the important dates.

I met Lacy Phillips, my expander and life changer, at an event at the end of last September. Within minutes of meeting her, I knew I wanted to work with her, so we scheduled an appointment for six weeks out—November 7th, 2016.

She told me to use the weeks before my appointment to really consider what I wanted to focus on and call in. And that’s when I started to get quiet. Carving out that reflection time wasn’t easy, or at least that is what I told myself...But I needed to do some deep internal work, if I was going to make the changes I needed to make.

And then, in November, we finally spoke. And she asked me casually, what if Gingersnap’s Organic wasn’t my purpose?  And the answers came pouring out of my soul, and I knew that my restaurant days were over. It was time to embrace a higher calling—to work with individuals to call in healing and transformation into their lives full time.

I gave notice to my landlord within a month.

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

Taking steps towards change by has been a pattern in my life. It started when I switched my major from business to philosophy (plus a minor in psychology) at nineteen years old. My dad wasn’t happy about it, but I knew I needed answers to all my questions about human nature, the mind, and relationships with myself and others.

As I dug into the inner workings of the human mind, I started to lose control over my own emotions and reactions. I got so trapped in my head, and each day felt painful to exist. I felt like there was no place for me. I just wanted to go away, disappear inside myself. 

In classes, I was learning about philosophy, and started really  battling my own mind.  I was  grasping for control in my relationship with food, and spending hours at the gym to fill this hole inside of me. I lost my self and tumbled deep into the darkness of depression, anxiety, and disordered eating. It was my darkest of dark.  

My problems didn’t magically disappear after college, even though I somehow thought they might. After graduating, I moved back to New York to live with my high school best friend. Maybe this sounds like every girl’s dream, but it was the exact opposite of what I needed. I yearned for new people, and a new (and true) identity, but I couldn’t escape the story of my adolescence. I was still struggling to find balance in my relationship with food, and the people around me were constant triggers for my anxiety, and insecurities.

 

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In 2000 I knew I needed to make a big change, if I wanted to live a better life.  I took a leap of faith, quit my job, and moved out to Santa Monica—a place that felt like home even though I didn’t know a soul, except of course my own, for the first time. So, I tossed my Guccis and started walking barefoot in the sand.

In Santa Monica, I met my soul sister Heather, who would have me meet her on the beach at 5AM to practice this kooky thing called Kundalini. I didn’t know what it was, but I knew that I felt great. She reminded me of my childhood connection to spirit and trust. I rediscovered my love for crystals and candles and all things mystical. She would give me Reiki and we would talk about the mind for hours on end.

In searching for a place to understand myself deeper, I started my first yoga teacher training with Saul David Raye in 2004, and then went on to finish my 200-hour and 300-hour training with Annie Carpenter at YogaWorks in 2006.  It was in that work that I was able to dive deeper into my body, connecting with my breath and my energy. I began to understand the power of choice, acceptance, and perspective. 

Fast forward to 2008, and this California girl had faced many of her demons. She was ready to come home. Within in months of landing back home, I fell in love with a meat-and-gluten-loving chef—which was quite the surprise for this raw vegan. 

Being back in New York (and with my food-loving husband) inspired me to create a plant based restaurant. I loved the idea of creating healing foods and helping people live nourishing lifestyles. So I charged ahead and ignored my intuition. You see, from my previous experience running plant based restaurants in Los Angeles, I always knew I was building something I didn’t want to run.

Even after years of self-work and discovery, I still wasn’t ready to own my truth, my desires, and my true purpose.

 

A Course in Miracles Community Night

A Course in Miracles Community Night

It wasn't all bad, by any means.  The bright spots were my interactions with my incredible customers. I’d work with them to make food and lifestyle choices that fit their needs, and in these moments I felt alive. I started to coach them in my hours away from the cafe and  I KNEW  that was what I was born to do. We also held a weekly community night where we discussed A Course in Miracles,   Unfortunately, I spent most of my hours solving sourcing problems, managing staff, and dealing with the hectic energy of running a cafe in Manhattan.

And this brings us back to last fall. My lifetimes-ago moment that sparked real change. The last week of January marks one year. One year since I closed the doors to what I once thought was my dream career. One year since I started living my real dream: bringing healing and transformation to my clients through mind shifting and energy work.  This year has gone so fast, yet it seems like lifetimes have passed. Stepping into my purpose and power hasn’t been easy, but it couldn’t be more rewarding.

The transformation process—even good, necessary transformation—isn’t easy, though. For the first few months, I worried that I had lost my identity. At first, when people would ask me about Gingersnap’s or my career, I would skirt their questions or give vague answers. I didn’t feel like I could step into the power of owning that I was a full time coach.

It took a little while for me to fully embrace and step into my new life. It started with a lot of journaling and inner work. And then small, brave actions followed. There were other larger shifts, too. At Gingersnap’s, every day was fast-paced, chaotic, and anxiety-inducing. When I transitioned into full-time coaching, I realized that I needed to reframe my beliefs around work, productivity, and self-worth.

I had gotten used to working fourteen-hour days, and I felt lost, at first, in the sometimes slowness of my new lifestyle. At the root of this lost-ness was fear, of course. Fear of stepping outside of my comfort zone. Fear that if I showed up as myself, people would run away. Fear that I wasn’t good enough. There was nothing to hide behind this time. No staff, no cafe—just me, out there for the world to judge. To keep the voices of fear and depression at bay, I created healthy rituals to anchor my days. I knew I needed to get out of my head and into intuitive action to stay in a healthy headspace.

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

Over time, I found my own incredible space where I could see my local clients.  And yes, it looks just like the one I held in my vision for the months prior.  I kept pursuing education and growth:  These practices keep me on track, and keep me moving forward, and keep me serving my clients in new and powerful ways.

None of my journey is about slapping a positivity quote on every situation—this is about deeply changing the way I viewed my life and  circumstances so that I could welcome in change. Going back to my days of philosophy, I now understand on a deeper level that we do have power over our minds, as long as we build helpful practices and learn to get quiet. When we can get quiet, we can act from a place of choice, rather than reaction.  We can tap into the pain of our past and learn to release and learn from it.  Even thank it...

Sometimes I wake up and feel guilty...like I’m not working hard enough because I find such deep joy in what I do. I’ll end an afternoon filled with back-to-back appointments or workshops and feel more energized than I have in years. And I take self-care seriously, like it’s my job—and, in a lot of ways, it really is! I do the hard work within myself so that I can show up in the best way possible for the people that come into my life, including my clients. 

Finally, when I’m tempted to wonder why it took me so long to find my true self and my true calling, I consciously sink into gratitude. I thank each part of my journey—from my eating disorder to my time in California—for being a teacher, a lesson, and a test.

My life has been an amazing collection of gifts and opportunities. Every experience brought me to this place where I was ready to bring in a guide and make this beautiful leap. And, while Gingersnap’s brought stress and anxiety into my life for so many years, it also cracked me open to see my truest purpose. And I can’t help but be grateful for that being the greatest lesson of all.

A master in the art of living draws no sharp distinction between his work and his play; his labor and his leisure; his mind and his body; his education and his recreation. He hardly knows which is which.
Lawrence Pearsall Jacks

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Setting Goals with the New Moon...

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Please note, while it is great to do this with the New Moon, you can really start ANYTIME, so don't make excuses why you can't start TODAY!

New moons are the Perfect time to focus on new beginnings and things that we want to bring forth. The first New Moon of the year, in Capricorn, is especially powerful for setting your year in the direction you want it to flow.  The New Moon in Capricorn is all about setting long term goals and taking actions towards them. 

Knowing the power of tonights New Moon, let's really focus on goal setting for the new year. I will still clear my crystals and set them in the New Moon energy infused with my intentions like I  wrote about a few weeks ago, but tonight I really want to get clear and focused.  I want to set my goals with laser focus;

Remember. 

“A dream is just a dream. A goal is a dream with a plan and a deadline.” Harvey MacMackay

To start, let's get quiet. For me, I will sit by my Altar, light my incense and candle and play  THIS PLAYLIST .  I find practicing One Minute Breath, before I journal, helps my creative flow. It calms my mind and my body so that my thoughts can flow clearly.  It helps me get into my body, and into the present moment.  

When the gong portion of the playlist is finished (The first 3 songs are 11 minutes, including the Gong),  get out your journal and just start to write out some of your desires for this upcoming year.  The song following the gong, is a very powerful mantra.  Ek Ong Kar Sat Gur Prasad, Sat Gur Prasad Ek Ong Kar mantra, the Magic Mantra, stops anything negative and removes all obstacles. It brings great intuition. (3HO) 

This mantra is so strong that it elevates the self beyond duality and establishes the flow of the spirit. This mantra will make the mind so powerful that it will remove all obstacles. We call it the ‘magic mantra’ because its powerful effect happens quickly and lasts a long time. But it has to be chanted with reverence, in a place of reverence.”-Yogi Bhajan

ONE MINUTE BREATH

  1. Sit in Easy Pose with Neck Lock. 
    • Neck Lock: Lift the chest and sternum up while lengthening the back of the neck, by pulling the chin toward the back of the neck. Neck, throat and face muscles remain relaxed.
  2. Inhale very slowly for 20 OR 10 OR 5 seconds.
  3. Hold for 20 OR 10 OR 5 seconds, pull the spine up, drop the shoulders.(the same amount of time you inhaled)
  4. Exhale very slowly for 20 OR 10 OR 5  seconds. .(the same amount of time you inhaled and held)
  5. Continue in that pattern. Just keep the numbers for each part of the breath the same. (Each part of the breath is the same amount of time)

Adapted from The Library of Teachings and KRI Teachers Manual.

JOURNALING AND GOAL SETTING

After you free flow with your thoughts,  start to add structure to your journaling and goal setting. I find the more detailed I get with my goals, the easier it is to see the steps I need to take to create them into my reality. So, be specific with each goal. For this exercise, focus on one goal at a time.  You can repeat it multiple times, but stay focused and bring each goal through the list of questions.

 Start by asking yourself some questions:

1) What is it that I want?

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It is important that we get clear on this. The process of manifesting and creating the life we dream of, starts with us holding a vision of it.  In order for us to create the life, it helps to see it, feel it, breathe it into our energy and hold it on our body.  So, specifically write down; how will you feel when you have this goal met? What will change for you physically? emotionally? visually?  Go through all the different aspects of your life that can change when you attain the goal.  

2) How will you know you have met your goal? 

It is helpful to have clear milestones that show you progress in attaining whatever it is you are wanting to call in.  In this step you want to create timelines where you check in to see the progress you made.  It is important that you take your time with this step.  Putting down right now as when you want to have this goal is not setting yourself up for true success.  When figuring out your milestones and the times to attaining them, you really want to think it through.  What are the steps you will have to take? How long will those steps take? Think about this step as if you are making a map with timeframes on your goal.  

3)What might stop you from having this goal met?

This is not to be negative, but we want to anticipate some of things that might present themselves as obstacles.  This way we go in, knowing how to get around them...So think about some of things that might stop you and then go inside and see the ways that you can get yourself around it.  This includes outside influences, as well as inner stories that you tell yourself.  Walk yourself through your doubt, so that you don't let it stop you.

4) What resources do you have NOW, that can help you in achieving your goal?

Go through and inventory all the things, people, connections and support you have that can help you with achieving your goal.  This could be a friend who is in the field you are looking to move into,  an editor of a blog you might want to be featured on, a Yoga teacher that inspires you etc...More often than not, people want to help each other.  Get together with people that inspire you towards your goals and spend time with them.  Ask the questions, ask for help. It is incredibly helpful to hear other people's success stories.  This gives your mind the conformation of what is possible.  

5) What are your steps?

After answering the first 4 questions you will have the answers to your last question.  What steps can I take to get closer to my goal?  List out the steps you need to make. Give yourself a number of steps you want to take each day, week, month etc...Track it.  Write down what you want to accomplish and when you do, write it down that you have completed it.  Look at it often, SEE your progress written down, in your handwriting.  This can be really helpful when you are having an off day.  

I have used these questions on myself and with clients, and if you do the work, your goals are just moments away... Please  let me know how it goes!

And if you haven't started yet, NOW  is a perfect time to start the New Years Mediation I posted a few weeks back, you can find it HERE . A New Moon is a perfect time to start a new habit. Remember, Yogi Bhajan says practicing every day for 40 days straight will break any negative habits that block you from the expansion possible through the kriya or mantra.

If you’re ready to really go after your goals and want a little extra help, I would love to see you in New York City in person, or virtually anywhere Schedule a time here. Looking forward to connecting! 

Meditation for Learning the Lessons of the Past-with Audio Track

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Photo John Von pamer

The beginning of the year is a great time to reflect.  For me, today is about meditating and journaling. The start of the year is the perfect time to start a new habit. Yogi Bhajan says practicing every day for 40 days straight will break any negative habits that block you from the expansion possible through the kriya or mantra.

I am in love with Kirtan Kriya in general, and the Cross-Heart version is extra special. I find it to be incredibly clearing and peaceful.  This meditation works on The Negative Mind,  The Negative Mind is there to protect us, but when it is too loud, it can stop us from moving forward and taking action.  When The Negative Mind is too quiet, we can find ourselves repeating mistakes of the past.  This is a great meditation for bringing The Negative Mind into balance.  You will be able to learn quickly from your past, and see new ways to clean it up and avoid repeating the same lessons.  I am going to add this meditation to my daily meditation for the next 40 days.  I invite you to do this along with me and let me know how it goes!

"The Hemispheres will balance; the past will be processed and dumped; and insecurity will vaporize." Yogi Bhajan

I will start by being in a sacred space, for me that is by my Altar.  Next, I  will light my candle and my incense and sit quiet for a Moment.  Then I will begin...

I created an audio file that will include tuning in, a quick basic spine series warm up and then 11 minutes of Cross Heart Kirtan Kriya, followed by 3 minute Wish Fulfilling Gong.  There will be music and I will be calling out all the cues.  You can listen to the audio below. (it can be pulled into spotify under local files after you download it...)

TUNING IN  

“Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo” said three times. Ong Namo: I  bow to the Creative Wisdom, Guru Dev Namo: I bow to the Divine Teacher within. 

Ad Guray Nameh Jugad Guray Nameh Sat Guray Nameh Siri Guru Devay Nameh said three times. Ad Guray Nameh: I bow to the primal wisdom. Jugad Guray Nameh: I bow to the wisdom through the ages .Sat Guray Nameh:  I bow to the true wisdom. Siri Guru Devay Nameh: I bow to the great unseen wisdom

 

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

 

WARM UP-BASIC SPINE

  1. Quick WARM UP of Basic Spine Flex. Come into Easy Pose (a comfortable cross-legged sitting position). Inhale as you lift the chest up high and tilt the pelvis forward. Then exhale, round the lower back, and rock the pelvis back. Remember to lift the chest up high on each inhale and keep the chin level to the ground in both positions.

  2. This is good to lubricate the spine, and move the energy. It adjusts the spine, strengthens the nervous and reproductive systems, and brings the emotions into balance. It is not part of the meditation, but beneficial to warm up the spine.

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR  A WILD DOVE

PHOTO BY CAITLIN MITCHELL FOR A WILD DOVE

CROSS-HEART KIRTAN KRIYA

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Image by starhealing 11

Posture: Sit in easy pose with a straight spine. Cross the forearms below the wrist and place them in front of the chest. Arms should be out slightly and angled a bit up towards the chest.

Eye Focus: Look down to the tip of your nose.

Mantra: Sa - Infinity Ta - Life Na - Death, Transformation Ma - Birth

Process: 

Chant “Sa Ta Na Ma” out loud and press the corresponding fingers to your thumb on each syllable. 

Sa - Press thumb and index finger (brings knowledge) 

Ta - Press thumb and middle finger (brings wisdom and patience) 

Na - Press thumb and ring finger (brings vitality) 

Ma - Press thumb and pinkie finger (brings enhanced communication)

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TA Library of Teachings

TA Library of Teachings

NA Library of Teachings

NA Library of Teachings

MA Library of teachings

MA Library of teachings

Your arms should be like the drawing above, across your chest.  These pictures are just to show you the changing fingers for the meditation.

Time: 11 Minutes

To Finish: 

Inhale and suspend your breath, roll your eyes back up and become completely still. Then relax.  (Adapted from KRI and The Mind, Yogi Bhajan)

JOURNALING

After I complete the meditation, I will start to journal.  Because the New Year falls on a Full Moon, one of the most powerful ones of 2018, i am going to take extra time with this entry.  I will play  THIS PLAYLIST  I will write out all of the lessons I learned in 2017.  I'll reflect on what I want to let go of.  I will take the lessons, but leave the habits and stories that no longer serve me.  It is an important time to be letting go of what you no longer need, and moving forward in the direction of the life you want.  This Full Moon i all about letting go of patterns, beliefs ,stories etc that we do not want to carry forward.  When I am finished, I will burn the entry or throw it down the toilet. You can follow my previous post about FULL MOON RITUALS, if you want to read more details for my ritual.  

 I like to take time with letting go on the full moon so,  I will sit with this, and later in the week (3 days after the Full Moon), I will focus on all that I want to bring forward. Of course, I will still be doing my Cross Heart Kirtan Kriya for 40 days, starting today....Stay Tuned later in the week for my intentions post....

If you want to learn more about this Full Moon, head over to  Elephant Journal , they have a great report on this powerful Full Moon.

If you are looking for a little extra help with making 2018 a year beyond your wildest dreams, Book a One on One Session with me! Looking forward to connecting!